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well, my life has once again returned to normal. Chris has returned to work for the day and paul and I have gone about our usual daily business. I miss him not being around, but at the same time, it's normal. u'know?

Paul and I took Chris to work this morning, came home and played. He had an early nap, and then we went out for breakfast with Cheryl. That was nice to catch up. She has moved into her own apt with her bf and all is well. I dropped her off at work for 1pm, and then we went to visit chris briefly at work, came home and played, and now paul is down for his afternoon nap. I think one of chris' co worker friends is coming over tonight for drinks. He called to ask...I don't give a shit..whatever...so I think he is. lol the only thing I don't like about the guy is his name: Shawn. haha.

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I had such a wonderful day yesterday. I am so sad that it's over. :( I'm sad that I have to go another whole month before I get a weekend off again. Plus, that weekend I have off again, I actually will have to work the monday b/c I couldn't get it off in vacation time, which sucks b/c we are going home for the annual hayride/cornroast at Dan's house. piff.

Anyways, back to yesterday....Chris, Paul and I went out for breakfast together. It was nice b/c Chris and I havne't gone out for breakfast together for a long time with mem working all those weekends and things. Paul was of course, well behaved and got lots of attention from everyone. He ate hashbrowns and toast with jam, which he got all over his arm. fun times. Then we didn't want to go home just yet, so we went to Toys R Us and checked out all the things we'd love to get for Paul someday. We didnt' buy anything, but it was fun looking just the same. :) Then we went to the mall for salsa (zehrs is in the mall and we needed salsa for our dinner, and forgot to buy it when we got groceries last week).

We came home around 11:30am or so, and gave Paul some lunch and he went down for a nap. I spent the time reading and looking around online. Chris played on his laptop for most of the day, actually. Paul got up around 3:30pm and we played and had fun. Then around 5-6, he was super fussy and gave me a headache, so Chris took Paul for a half hour bike ride, which did the trick. Paul came home in great spirits. Chris made homemade tacos for supper which were super yummy :) Paul was in bed just after 7pm.

It was just so nice to co-parent. Instead of feeling like we are single parents who just happen to be married, which is how I feel most of the time, and Chris feels the same as well. We really do treasure those days when we both get to be home together ALL day with Paul. It's just so much fun. I really miss my old positions when I would have every other weekend off. I really REALLY miss that! *sigh* I really do.

Later this morning, Paul and I are going out with Cheryl. It should be fun. I haven't seen her in a few weeks, which is actually not normal. I wasn't sure if she would even be home today or not, b/c I don't know her schedual b/c it changes weekly, but I asked for the car on the incase, and sure enough, cheryl called just before I put Paul down for his nap. Very exciting. I am really hoping to get hashbrowns and cheese for dinner tonight or tomorrow night...whichever. I still want to get it today.

This afternoon, we have no plans. I might take Paul to the beach or to the park or something depending on the weather. IT's suppose to be nice today...but by Friday, it's suppose to be 42 with the humidex!!!!!!!! *gross* I am really NOT looking forward to that. uurgh. Thank god I am working!

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Hi. Starlight is sitting beside me watching me type and also, at the very same time, watching the door on the incase Jonathan should happen to walk down the stairs...haha. Last night, I had a dream that Starlight and Heaven were around and that Heaven became this evil sinister cat and starlight was moronic but still alright for the most part. It was a little scary at times, and there was even a brief interlude that made me think it was actually real. *shivers*

It's hot today, but so far, not as bad as it has been...we will see how the day progresses. Also, we never did have any tornados. lol

Today, I think the plan is that around 10:15am or so, I will wake Paul up and get him ready. Jonathan, Paul, Cheryl and I are going out for breakfast then we are off to canadian tire to check out air conditioners. I will drop Cheryl off at work at some point, and then I really have no plans. Chris wants to change our entire bedroom around when he gets home. I don't care what he does, so long as he does it when Paul is awake.

Speaking of the babes, he's good. He's napping at the present time. He enjoyed taking daddy to work this morning. He went to bed early for his nap so that he gets a decent one in before we go out. I try to do that as much as possible for the little guy. It's hard to do breakfast, when it's almost lunch before he gets up though...but ya gotta do, what cha gotta do!

Lisa, my sis, writes her LSATS test next week. I forget the actual day? I think it's like the 17th or something...I'm so nervous for her! I'm sure she will do fine, but I'm still nervous for her nonetheless. However, I do think that Jeffy is taking his life in his hands by going with her to Suds to be there when she gets done writing her test. lol

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Hi.

Paul is having a difficult time going down for a nap it seems...so we will give it another go. I'm also working on laundry to pass the early morning hours :P

Today, Cheryl and I are going out for breakfast, being that she was origionally going to watch Paul for me so I could have my interview, I thought it only fitting to see if she wanted to still get together anyways. Which she said she did. SO we are meeting around 11am. She said she had a very eventful weekend. Her boyfriends, parents are divorcing and they are selling the house. That is the gist of it without getting into much detail. I was so shocked when she told me everything though b/c his parents have been together for 26 years. It's just crazy, there is of course other stuff, but it's personal.

I'm looking forward to breakfast. Then I also have to go to the bank sometime today, and we will probably go and see Chris for a few minutes, as well. Other than that, though, we'll just be chilling. I can't go and see B today b/c Mondays are always too busy, so maybe I will see if I can have the car on Wed.

So, I had a really nice weekend with Chris. We each got a morning to sleep in undisturbed. We even went to DQ and got a blizzard for a treat. We went for a wagon ride yesterday and Paul just loved it!!!!!!!! (except for one small part when Chris was crossing the street and there was more of a bump to get the wagon onto the sidewalk, so he had to jerk it a bit harder to get the wagon onto the sidewalk and the jerking motion scared paul. But it was short lived :)

I think I need to find a new job. Something different than what I am doing now. The only problem is that I make a very good income with the job that I have, and I have a good reputation with my co workers as well. I'd have to start over again. But I think now is probably a good time to start to see if I can find something different to do. I just don't want to take care of ppl in a group home setting any more. I have felt that way since I returned to work after my mat leave. It's just very difficult to take care of Paul and then go and take care of 5 other ppl who need me just as much when I am there. I just am not sure WHAT I want to do. I would love something with structured hours, where I don't have to work many weekends, if any at all, and I don't want to have to do something that involves personal care like I do now. But I want to do something important. I still want to help people. My back ground is in Social work, so it's a broad spectrum. I just don't know....

Over the weekend, I had phone calls and messages online from some of my co workers who heard what happened with my work, and every single one of them says that what is being said of me is completely untrue and that I deserve so much better than the treatment I am recieving from my superiors. I thought it was so nice of them. I also had a few co workers call me just to make sure I was alright. how sweet. I really like the people I work with, they are an amazing bunch. I'm very lucky in that aspect.

I know I need to move on from this. I have to go to work on Thursday and I have to be happy and I have to pretend like everything is okay, because we have a staff meeting first thing, and the person(s) who said those things about me, will be waiting for me to say something, and I don't want to give them the benefit of seeing me upset. I just don't know HOW I am going to do it yet. I'm really glad that I had the weekend off and that I get 6 days in total to cool down before I go back to work. I just havne't really cooled down yet and I am running out of time.

I have decided though to go to counselling. I think it would be a good idea for me. Maybe I will get some ideas on what to do or to see things differently. who knows? It's worth a shot.

Anyways, I am going to run and get ready to go for breaky.

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Hi!

Well, all is well in my household today. Chris got home last night at 8:50pm. He hurt his sore ankle by slamming it against a skid or a machine, don't know which so he could hardly walk when he got home. I suggested he have a bath (being that we live the life of luxury now) to help his foot. So he gets in the tub and is talking away, when all of a sudden Paul wakes up. Well, Chris jumped up, bubbles and all, quickly dried his self off and ran over to get Paul! It was so funny. (chris hasn't seen Paul since Sun night). When Paul realized it was daddy,he was all smiles and wanted to be hugged and hugged. adorable. After the Paul thing, he went back and finished his bath followed by a foot massage by me b/c his feet were still throbbing. yes, I can be nice sometimes :P

Today, Chris had to be at work for 7am, which is a bit better. So we didn't take the car. Paul woke up at 8:20am, and we went about our usual morning and things. I put him down for his nap and the little funny boycotter man boycotted his morning nap!!! haha. SO, we decided to go for a stroller ride and we went to mcdonalds for lunch. (well, I ate, Paul played. He had a good time and was very facinated by the grandma type lady beside us, and the man in the business suit across from us).

When we got back it was noon. So, I gave Paul his lunch and put him down for his nap. SO far, he's still sleeping. haha. Cheryl just called and she is going to come over for tea for around 3pm which is nice. I'm looking forward to that. :)

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